“It’s funny, I used to think that proving people wrong made me feel strong. As I have gotten older, I realized that proving myself wrong makes me feel the strongest of all.
The first example of proving myself wrong was when I was a sophomore in high school. I had attended the musical our freshman year and absolutely loved it. I had always loved dancing and performing, but my anxiety and shyness had stopped me from pursuing it further than a few dance classes and a few years on the cheerleading squad. When auditions came, we were told that we had to prepare a song to sing, as well as read a few lines as an assigned character (or two). I selected Norah Jones’ “Don’t Know Why.” As I stepped up to audition and the music started, I began to have an anxiety attack, and had to leave the room without completing my audition. I cried in the bathroom, repeating “I just can’t do it,” and cried all the way home when my mom picked me up. I vowed that I was going to try again the next day.
The next day came, and I stepped up, hands still shaking so much they moved the paper with my lyrics, and completed my audition. I had never felt the adrenaline rush like I felt that day. Most recently, I faced my fear of speaking on live TV. I had been offered opportunities with other roles in the past, but when I helped open Snap Kitchen’s brand in Philly, I had my first live, on-air interview with Mike Jerrick from Fox29. I was shaking the entire time, and quite literally can’t remember what I said because my anxiety was so high that I just DID it. After I was done, the same rush came back over me and the sense of strength, confidence and pride that I had when I was a teenager resurfaced. Looking back, all the pivotal moments in my life – auditioning for the hip hop club in college, planning my first events with little to no experience, falling in love with my husband, and taking major career leaps have always been fueled not only by my instinct, but by my desire to prove myself wrong.
Now, as I start my own business, I’m calling upon the same strength, the same fire, the same adrenaline that I have used to overcome all of my fears.”